Living,loving,wondering(why on earth I do these two), hoping, praying, wishing, pondering (about the purpose of these three), crying, laughing (for others` sake mostly),ruminating, reminiscing, traveling (down memory lane),hurting,learning,more learning,missing ,realizing,giving(thanks mostly),getting (frustrated and depressed mostly),more realizing, much more learning, feeling (rage mostly), feeling (sadness sometimes),regretting, growing (up mostly,old too),feeling (more rage),feeling (nothing at all),awakening, moving out, moving in, leaving (the past behind), cherishing, treasuring (those who matter so much)and last but not the least, moving on....
.........hereby ending (a long chapter in Bugs` Life).
Over and Out
Bugs
The Promise.
If you wait for me then I'll come for you
Although I've traveled far
I always hold a place for you in my heart
If you think of me If you miss me once in awhile
Then I'll return to you
I'll return and fill that space in your heart
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
If you dream of me like I dream of you
In a place that's warm and dark
In a place where I can feel the beating of your heart
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face your smile
To be with you wherever you are
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face, your smile
To be with you wherever you are
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
Please say you'll be waiting
Together again
It would feel so good to be
In your arms
Where all my journeys end
If you can make a promise If it's one that you can keep, I vow to come for you
If you wait for me and say you'll hold
A place for me in your heart.
- Tracy Chapman.
*You nailed it when you wrote this song*.
Now you know why I absolutely love this one.
Over & Out
Bugs
Although I've traveled far
I always hold a place for you in my heart
If you think of me If you miss me once in awhile
Then I'll return to you
I'll return and fill that space in your heart
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
If you dream of me like I dream of you
In a place that's warm and dark
In a place where I can feel the beating of your heart
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face your smile
To be with you wherever you are
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face, your smile
To be with you wherever you are
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
Please say you'll be waiting
Together again
It would feel so good to be
In your arms
Where all my journeys end
If you can make a promise If it's one that you can keep, I vow to come for you
If you wait for me and say you'll hold
A place for me in your heart.
- Tracy Chapman.
*You nailed it when you wrote this song*.
Now you know why I absolutely love this one.
Over & Out
Bugs
Confessions of a Confused Mind.
When I saw him this time around in India, he looked the same from what he did 8-9 years ago. The same muscular frame, the same rugged look. He was on the other side of the road, I dont think he saw me. Even if he did, he might not have recognized me. After all, I was one of the many in his life......
The year was 1999-2000. I was a slightly plump, highly impressionable teenager, excited to start college. As I went by as usual on MG road one day,I happened to pass by this new place. It was a new business and something drew me to it so strongly. There was a sudden magnetic pull and I found myself walking in through the door. And there he was behind the desk. The pull was so strong that I felt a chill go through my spine. He welcomed me in and started talking to me. But he had a frown on his face. "But you are so young...are you sure? I am used to older women".
The experience was exhilarating. He was experienced, strong and undoubtedly very skilled. Every time it was a new high. I now experienced the weakening at the knees, total breathlessness, and a fluttering heart everytime. I also saw levels of exhaustion that I hadn't seen before (at least in the first couple of times!!!). I came back glowing and happy. I was looking better than before with each time. Friends,family,people started noticing it and remarked on how much better I looked.
But all things change. His business picked up. He got busy. He did not have as much time for us. As days went on, I still saw and spoke to him but he was preoccupied with his growing business. So I started looking for others. We still met, but there was nothing like before. One day, I thought I had found someone else...and told him so. He did not seem so upset...so I left him. I did call him a few weeks later, but he was very busy. I called again later but he now had a secretary and she said he would call me.But he did not. I put him behind me and moved on. But I still thought about him.
After him I went through Raj, K and even Sarala. Then later in the US there were other women - Misty,Nicole,Karen,Viola and Jackie. Viola came the closest to being as good as him. She got me going as much as he did. But it was very shortlived. I had to move and there was no way she was going with me. I thought I had found the perfect one after years. Alas!!!
They were all wonderful in their own ways but none close to my first gym instructor - Sekhar. He got me started on working out, the basics, the warm ups, the cool downs, aerobics... the whole works! I am grateful to him for instilling the interest in me.
What were you all thinking? Time to pick your minds up off the gutter...:P.
Over and Out
Bugs
The year was 1999-2000. I was a slightly plump, highly impressionable teenager, excited to start college. As I went by as usual on MG road one day,I happened to pass by this new place. It was a new business and something drew me to it so strongly. There was a sudden magnetic pull and I found myself walking in through the door. And there he was behind the desk. The pull was so strong that I felt a chill go through my spine. He welcomed me in and started talking to me. But he had a frown on his face. "But you are so young...are you sure? I am used to older women".
The experience was exhilarating. He was experienced, strong and undoubtedly very skilled. Every time it was a new high. I now experienced the weakening at the knees, total breathlessness, and a fluttering heart everytime. I also saw levels of exhaustion that I hadn't seen before (at least in the first couple of times!!!). I came back glowing and happy. I was looking better than before with each time. Friends,family,people started noticing it and remarked on how much better I looked.
But all things change. His business picked up. He got busy. He did not have as much time for us. As days went on, I still saw and spoke to him but he was preoccupied with his growing business. So I started looking for others. We still met, but there was nothing like before. One day, I thought I had found someone else...and told him so. He did not seem so upset...so I left him. I did call him a few weeks later, but he was very busy. I called again later but he now had a secretary and she said he would call me.But he did not. I put him behind me and moved on. But I still thought about him.
After him I went through Raj, K and even Sarala. Then later in the US there were other women - Misty,Nicole,Karen,Viola and Jackie. Viola came the closest to being as good as him. She got me going as much as he did. But it was very shortlived. I had to move and there was no way she was going with me. I thought I had found the perfect one after years. Alas!!!
They were all wonderful in their own ways but none close to my first gym instructor - Sekhar. He got me started on working out, the basics, the warm ups, the cool downs, aerobics... the whole works! I am grateful to him for instilling the interest in me.
What were you all thinking? Time to pick your minds up off the gutter...:P.
Over and Out
Bugs
25 Random Things About Me!!!
Reposted from Facebook Notes.
1. Darn!25 is a long list....gotto write...ok...first thing..Im easily distracted...hey!wait whats that on the side??.......
2. .....Except with books-my first love...I love reading. All genres,anything worth the time I giving it. I pulled night outs to finish books.
3. I am a control freak...(happy S?). But mostly for my own sake....I dont trouble others much..:P
4.I love to immerse myself in something or the other to the point of an obsession. I either dont do something or put everything into it...no in betweens in anything.
5.I have a fantastic long term memory. I can name unimportant dates and events and wht I wore/someone wore from years back.
6.I am freak injury prone..
7. I pretty much have the distinction of being very mediocre in every sport I can play/have played so far.except frisbee (if it can be called a sport).:D... But I love playing them and working out.
8. I was once upon a time a top ranker in the chennai city level scrabble tournament. Only for a year though:(
9. I have always wanted to be taller and thinner.
10. I am allergic to most types of mushrooms.
11. Im partially lactose intolerant.
12. I tried giving up processed food, but lasted only one day....
13. ........mainly because I love dark chocolate.
14. I am a chocolate puritan...I dont like to mix/layer/fill/top it with nuts,caramel,anything and destroy its purity.
15. I absolutely dont have a sweet tooth. Eat only desserts that have chocolate.
16. I LOVE bitter and sour tasting stuff.
17. One of my biggest quirks is seeing a tube of toothpaste not sqeezed from the bottom.
18.I knock on closed doors in my own house (if there is another person in the house that is).
19.I have more guy friends than girls. & I relate very well to people much older to me.
20.I have been told that I am the most impatient person that many people have seen/known.
21.I have watched only a couple of chick flicks and a few S&C episodes thanks only to S.
22.I LOVE heights,speed,steep climbs,plunges....amusement park rides - scarier the better!
23.I have been mostly successful in conquering my anger over many years now.
24. I love household gadgets. I have my dream vacuum cleaner, mixer-blender....:D..doesnt everybody?:P
25.I can watch blood/gore on TV to quite an extent but I cant watch anybody giving an injection/peircing someone with needles...surprisingly I can watch the doctor giving me an injection and not squirm!
1. Darn!25 is a long list....gotto write...ok...first thing..Im easily distracted...hey!wait whats that on the side??.......
2. .....Except with books-my first love...I love reading. All genres,anything worth the time I giving it. I pulled night outs to finish books.
3. I am a control freak...(happy S?). But mostly for my own sake....I dont trouble others much..:P
4.I love to immerse myself in something or the other to the point of an obsession. I either dont do something or put everything into it...no in betweens in anything.
5.I have a fantastic long term memory. I can name unimportant dates and events and wht I wore/someone wore from years back.
6.I am freak injury prone..
7. I pretty much have the distinction of being very mediocre in every sport I can play/have played so far.except frisbee (if it can be called a sport).:D... But I love playing them and working out.
8. I was once upon a time a top ranker in the chennai city level scrabble tournament. Only for a year though:(
9. I have always wanted to be taller and thinner.
10. I am allergic to most types of mushrooms.
11. Im partially lactose intolerant.
12. I tried giving up processed food, but lasted only one day....
13. ........mainly because I love dark chocolate.
14. I am a chocolate puritan...I dont like to mix/layer/fill/top it with nuts,caramel,anything and destroy its purity.
15. I absolutely dont have a sweet tooth. Eat only desserts that have chocolate.
16. I LOVE bitter and sour tasting stuff.
17. One of my biggest quirks is seeing a tube of toothpaste not sqeezed from the bottom.
18.I knock on closed doors in my own house (if there is another person in the house that is).
19.I have more guy friends than girls. & I relate very well to people much older to me.
20.I have been told that I am the most impatient person that many people have seen/known.
21.I have watched only a couple of chick flicks and a few S&C episodes thanks only to S.
22.I LOVE heights,speed,steep climbs,plunges....amusement park rides - scarier the better!
23.I have been mostly successful in conquering my anger over many years now.
24. I love household gadgets. I have my dream vacuum cleaner, mixer-blender....:D..doesnt everybody?:P
25.I can watch blood/gore on TV to quite an extent but I cant watch anybody giving an injection/peircing someone with needles...surprisingly I can watch the doctor giving me an injection and not squirm!
New Blog Byline.
....is from Waters` Dark side of the moon - Eclipse with my touch thrown in. Here`s giving him credit for the excerpt.
All that you touch
All that you see
All that you taste
All you feel.
All that you love
All that you hate
All you distrust
All you save.
All that you give
All that you deal
All that you buy,
beg, borrow or steal.
All you create
All you destroy
All that you do
All that you say.
All that you eat
And everyone you meet
All that you slight
And everyone you fight.
All that is now
All that is gone
All that's to come
and everything under the sun is in tune
but the sun is eclipsed by the moon.
"There is no dark side of the moon really. Matter of fact it's all dark."
AMEN!
Its one of those times that life is ruled by a certain kind of music. I wake up to Floyd, then play Tracy Chapman and then David Grey!!Talk about being a creature of habit! Oh, I digress.
But, its only fitting that I dedicate my byline to one of my fave rock bands and undoubtedly one of the best of the times. Personally, they totally floored me with somber,philosophical,ponderous and cryptic lyrics (I *heart* words!!!). Equally esoteric art.. ..Of course, the music, equally great vocals and guitar.
(The previous byline on my blog was from Stairway to Heaven, which according to me is the best song ever. Again I relate to it in ways I thought never possible). And I paid tribute to the song. In my own way).
All that you touch
All that you see
All that you taste
All you feel.
All that you love
All that you hate
All you distrust
All you save.
All that you give
All that you deal
All that you buy,
beg, borrow or steal.
All you create
All you destroy
All that you do
All that you say.
All that you eat
And everyone you meet
All that you slight
And everyone you fight.
All that is now
All that is gone
All that's to come
and everything under the sun is in tune
but the sun is eclipsed by the moon.
"There is no dark side of the moon really. Matter of fact it's all dark."
AMEN!
Its one of those times that life is ruled by a certain kind of music. I wake up to Floyd, then play Tracy Chapman and then David Grey!!Talk about being a creature of habit! Oh, I digress.
But, its only fitting that I dedicate my byline to one of my fave rock bands and undoubtedly one of the best of the times. Personally, they totally floored me with somber,philosophical,ponderous and cryptic lyrics (I *heart* words!!!). Equally esoteric art.. ..Of course, the music, equally great vocals and guitar.
(The previous byline on my blog was from Stairway to Heaven, which according to me is the best song ever. Again I relate to it in ways I thought never possible). And I paid tribute to the song. In my own way).
Return!
Yes!This officially proves that the probability of one`s propensity to do all other stuff other than studying before an exam is indirectly proportional to the time available before the exam. I have seen this happen with me (and others around me) all these years. But today I blog about it because...as I said it is evidence to what has been established and noted in Line 1 above. The blog had been dormant for a good few months (and with good reason) and then saw activity peak with a rant post marking my return; nothing after and then this inexplicable desire to post today.
So I hope that my fingers shall cease to itch to type, and the "write" side of my brain switch mode to my "cram" side. Yeah, a lot to ask for especially since the "cram" switch has been off for a while.
So readers...wish me luck for a first exam in blogosphere light years (yes!!its a new concept of the unit of measurement of time,proposed by Aravind)
More blogging shall happen henceforth. As seen from past (un)published evidence, the desire to blog increases with increase in school work.
Over & out
Bugs
P.S: Note the total technical writing style sampler in the post. Piled Higher Deeper,you see.
So I hope that my fingers shall cease to itch to type, and the "write" side of my brain switch mode to my "cram" side. Yeah, a lot to ask for especially since the "cram" switch has been off for a while.
So readers...wish me luck for a first exam in blogosphere light years (yes!!its a new concept of the unit of measurement of time,proposed by Aravind)
More blogging shall happen henceforth. As seen from past (un)published evidence, the desire to blog increases with increase in school work.
Over & out
Bugs
P.S: Note the total technical writing style sampler in the post. Piled Higher Deeper,you see.
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