Retrospection

Ok. I well and truly did not know what to title this post. But I have thought so much about this and I am now totally puzzled.

It is so refreshing and heartening when someone does something that increases my regard for them so much. Not that I did not already adore and respect the person. But certain acts/words are so effective that its like a reflex reaction that I can`t but regard him more. And when it involves immense guts, chalk up a double dose of regard from me! As I always say and have blogged about it before, I continually need something like this to restore my faith in people. Where I have only seen in the past few months that people who mattered to me fell so much from the place I had for them, made me lose the level of respect, adoration and admiration I had for them, such teeny weeny events are a big leap for me.

In my case, this regard/respect for a person is linked so much his/her integrity. From this stems trust. And when someone who matters falls from the place/respect/regard I hold for him/her, it weakens my belief system. And that causes me to judge them for what they did.....much against my better judgment.

And when such little acts happen, it causes me to think. So much so that it drains me out. And its harder because my mind is at work and my brain is cranking underneath the normal facade I am trying to maintain.

A depth of personality and character is hard to find. Mainly because the person has been judged and the case closed before the depth has been assessed. Only those who stay long enough to see the core are lucky to get to know the person completely.

I am lost for words beyond this. I think is enough psychobabble for one post.

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